do I create and perform musical works with all my
heart and soul, I'm at least as passionate about
writing down my thoughts and feelings. Reasoning,
meditating and analysing is all part of this and
by putting it down in words Jah has enabled me to
share it with others.
WRITINGS OF MESSIAN DREAD
and Unity (2)
for an eye witness account....
This will be a little bit personal here and
It's funny, how loving the truth can lead
you to experiencing the most bizarre things.
When you're not interested in unholy
alliances, when you know how there is a
difference between love and unity, you will
have to face the reality that there are
those who are more interested in their own
"positive" feelings rather then
finding the truth for themselves. And they
will blame you for not being "one"
and, ofcourse, "being negative".
They will even hate you, forget their "positiveness"
for a minute or two and show their true
You recognize it instantly, as in: the
moment you are being attacked over who you
are because of what you say.
The latest experience in this area was for
me a few hours ago, when I read something on
a website of self-proclaimed followers of
Yesus Kristos, blaming me for not adhering
to the official Haitian State Religion (Vodouism)
because I do not support Christafari.
Yes, you read that correctly. This is how
bizarre it goes when you have something else
but the truth to unify you. But then, I
think that for those who are willing to
search deep, it shouldn't be that much of a
There are several things in this matter,
that show clearly how there is a difference
between a unity based on the Truth and a
unity based on "positiveness" (see
previous posting called "Love and
Unity"). For ultimately, I am
blamed by self professed followers of Yesus
Kristos for not willing to be in spiritual
unity with for example "Christafari",
or, yes the Haitian state religion of Vodou.
To them, "love" means
"unity" which means "don't
say anything which might hurt the good
feelings of another one".
I do not believe that Love and Unity are the
same things. I believe that I must love
everyone but not have spiritual unity with
everyone. But not being able to have a
spiritual unity with everyone doesn't
prevent me from loving the other one stil..
This become clear when you consider the
unity of a marriage, which is partly sexual.
While the married couple have unity, they
still love everyone but it doesn't mean they
have unity with everyone. Spiritually, this
is the same. I do not need to have a form of
spiritual unity with ones who believe in a
different God and that doesn't prevent me
from being able to share love still. For
love and unity are truly two different
Having said that, now what is the connection
between Christafarianism and Vodouism? The
answer to that can be found in an MSN
Group called "The House of the
Fullfilled Rastafari". It can also
be found on the Dubroom messageboard, by the
What is the "House of the Fullfilled
Rasta"? For those of you who don't
know, it's a messageboard on the Internet by
self-proclaimed followers of Yesus Kristos
claiming to be a "New House of
Rastafari". Based on a saying by ex-I
threes singer Judy Mowatt, who calls herself
Fullfiled Rasta after she cut her
dreadlocks, this "New House" is
founded in order to get acceptance in the
infrastructure of "Irascom", a
controversial organization (cl)aiming to
unify all members and/or houses of the
Movement of Rastafari. Signatures needed to
get "Full fille Rasta" accepted in
this organization were collected partly on
the Christafari Message Boards.
I have written before on the "Fullfilled
Rasta" and I have said quite a few
things about the fact that it seems like
this "New House Of Rastafari" is
kind of of infiltration from the Christafari
Organization into the Movement of Rastafari.
The fact that signatures to get "Fullfilled
Rasta" accepted in Irascom are gathered
on the Christafari's messageboard, as
well as the fact that the founder of the
"Fullfilled Rasta House"
subsequently used the infrastructure of
Irascom to spread racist attacks towards me
because I publish books about Christafari
should say enough. To study a little deeper
into what exactly is so "Rasta"
about this "Fullfilled Rasta"
might bring quite a few relevant details to
the surface as well... But that's none of my
There is a very strong debate about this
organization "Irascom". There are
those who are in favour of what the
organization (cl)aims to do and there are
those who oppose it. Personally, I prefer to
stay out of the debate as I am not calling
myself a Rasta. But repeatedly, I am being
drawn into the debate by the "Fullfilled
House of Rastafari". Irascom's Message
Board, where you can only post when you are
a member of the organization and supportive
of Irascom's philosophy, is even used to
spread racist remarks concerning me which
will definitely make people think that
Irascom itself is a racist organization.
Something which may be of concern for that
organization, but that aside. It's none of
my business, after all.
In the debate about Irascom, there are those
who oppose the organization and her (cl)aims.
The members of the "House of Fullfilled
Rasta" have a certain technique to
attack those that oppose Irascom. These
people are then being compared with me, or
they are being accused of not hating me.
It's easy, for these self proclaimed
followers of Yesus Kristos, because they
also claim to be Rasta and they know how I
am not calling myself a Rasta and do not
want to participate in the debate about
Irascom either. I am simply a very easy
This becomes obvious, when you see just how
ones who oppose Irascom actually do this.
According to a posting by the
"Chairman" of the organization, he
was faced with all kinds of violence and
threads by whom he himself called "Rastas".
And in the online debate about the
organization, containing much argumentated
and thoughtfull reasoning, Irascom is
compared with the One World Order while
there also circulates a cartoon wherein they
are being compared with MacDonald's. All
this, obviously, to the chagrin of Irascom.
And so their "Chairman" speaks
out. Everytime this is done in front of the
"Fullfilled House of Rasta",
however, I am being drawn into the diss-cuss-I-on.
One time, a criticaster is compared with me,
another time someone is blamed for not
hating me, and a third time someone is
accused of "being Messian Dread's
friend". These are then the ultimate
arguments to convince people of the
neccesity of the Irascom Organization...
Count your blessings... With such
It goes further.
founder of the "House of Fullfilled
Rasta" is a strong supporter of
Christafari, too, which is the basis for
her personal hatret towards me. Before I
spoke out on Christafari, she didn't hate me
at all. I even received some nice personal
things sent to me by mail in which she
expressed her happiness with the things I am
doing. That changed completely after I spoke
out against Christafari.
I have had long time public reasonings with
her after I released my first book on the
Christafari Organization. These reasonings
became very heated, when it turned out that
we were both having a totally different set
of arguments as well as philosophy. Her
arguments to make me stop exposing
Christafari were no arguments to me. And my
arguments to expose Christafari were no
arguments to her. While she urged me to not
write any "negativeness" about
Christafari, because of "Unity", I
tried to bring forward the facts which
clearly show how Christafari should be
exposed, that is when you want to do what is
written in the Bible and you want to expose
the works of darkness rather then
participating in them.
After all, there is a difference between
love and unity. While we must love everyone,
we should not strive to be in unity with
everyone. Ask any married couple about the
difference between love and unity.
After a while, "the founder of the
House of the Fullfilled Rasta" became
so angry at me for not willing to base my
statements about Christafari on
"positive" or "negative"
rather then the truth, that she became
verbally abusive and cyber-stalked me to
quarrel with me everywhere I went and then
blaming me for who I am. Screaming and
insulting me, attacking my person with
racist remarks and what have you. She does
so, until this day. Now appearantly even
webmasters are blamed for not immediatly
removing me of the membership list, a thing
which is done repeatedly at
"Christian" boards in support of
Christafarianism. And this, ultimately, is
also because I expose Christafari. What a
"love", isn't it....
At a certain point, while writing on the
Dubroom Messageboards how I should stop
exposing Christafari, she said something
like "I don't really know why I write
this but it makes some sense", and
started to make fun of my name, Messian
Dread by changing the word Messian into
"Mess-I-Am". This verbal abuse was
some kind of ultimate argument to convince
me to not expose Christafari... Oddly, the
word "Dread" was left unchanged
where "Messian" was the target of
the humour... Anyway, I told her that the
previous one who called me like that was a
Vodou Priest who didn't like Messiah. Back
in 1997, 1998 I had some fierce debates with
a self proclaimed Vodou Priest who had
appearantly the same "kind of humour"
and she really didn't like Yesus Kristos as
she said stuff like Yesus is a tool of
enslavement and all of that. I haven't
spoken with her for years... And so I was
reminded of that when I read the
To my surprise, I got an answer from another
self proclaimed adherant of the Haitian
State Religion. Oddly enough, the answer was
written from the very same account as the
one used by the founder of the "House
of the Fullfilled Rasta". And it
basically said, that I was being
"attacking African culture". I
hadn't really done anything but simply
mentioning how the previous one who called
me names that way was a Vodou Priest who
didn't like Yesus Kristos.
Now, a little bit of research shows how
Vodouism has many roots in the Roman
Catholic "Church" and therefore
has not so much to do with African Culture
as it's adherants would like other people to
believe, but that's not really the point. I
simply can not have a spiritual unity with
an adherant of Vodouism but not because of
Africa. That which prevents me from having a
spiritual unity with an adherant of Vodou is
something which is a global thing, not
specifically African or European. That which
prevents me, is the fact that I'm not into
any organized religion where one man is a
mediator between another man and his
Creator. Additionally, the Bible tells us
not to call on the spirit of the dead, where
in every part of the world this is done.
It's commonly know as "the
occult". It would include Vodou
(Haiti), Wicca (Europe), Shamanism
(Siberia), Obeah (Jamaica) and what have
you. So being against the occult has nothing
to do with any specific place on the planet.
But that's not really the point. It's not
really the point either, that the Movement
of Rastafari has allways had strong opposers
of the occult among the members. Although
these points are actually quite relevant in
many other aspects. The
whole story can be found here. The point
is, as you can see contiously when you look
to the many postings in and from members of
the "House of Fullfilled Rasta",
that I expose Christafari. This, and
appearantly my skin colour, is the only
thing which the founder of the "House
of Fullfilled Rasta" actually has
against me. What conclusion should I make?
Now, in the reason debate about Irascom, as
said I am being drawn into it repeatedly
where I have said repeatedly (why) I do not
want to participate in a reasoning within
the Movement of Rastafari since I do not
call myself a Rasta (out of respect, not
because I think Rasta is evil). But, maybe
because of lack of argumentation, it seems
like the only thing which the "Fullfilled
House of Rasta" can say to those who
oppose Irascom is another insult towards me
and a subsequent comparance of one who
critisize Irascom with me.
Basically, they say: "When you are
against Irascom, you are like Messian Dread
who is against Christafari".
When this all sounds complicated, please
know that I myself find it rather
complicated too. Apart from the fact that I
am pretty upset over the racism and the
hatret coming from a self proclaimed
follower of Yesus Kristos, I had to dig very
deep to find the answer to that one
question: why am I being personally attacked
for who I am because of what I do? Why are
others personally attacked for who I am
because of what they do? No, I didn't make a
typo in that previous sentence.
I think, I found the answer a while ago.
When I wrote my first book on Christafari,
the Christafarians did exactly the same.
They started to write about me rather then
about the subjects I adressed. These
subjects were called "superficial
issues" and "negative".
However, Christafari publicly said that
"Rastafarianism" (as they call it)
was incompatible with the true doctrines of
Christianity when in private I had been
speaking with Christafari's Mark Mohr and he
admitted to know the truth. The truth being
that there are many Christian within the
Movement of Rastafari and therefore
Rastafari is not incompatible with the true
doctrines of Christianity... But he kept
saying one thing in public and another in
private. In public, he had to say these
things about "Rastafarianism" as
he got support from "Christians"
who believed the statements and considered
the word "Rastafarian" to be
similar with "Non-Christians". So
he didn't speak the truth because he loved
his "missionairy image".
It became clear how they were not founding
themselves on the truth at all. The truth,
in this case, was a "superficial issue
in the public's eye" according to Mark
Mohr. So "the public's eye" (as
defined by Mohr, obviously) and the way they
feel is the measure by which Christafari
judges as to whether they should say a thing
or not. Not whether something is true or
not. For Mark admitted to me in private how
he knew there are born again Christians
within Rastafari but nevertheless claimed
the opposite in his public statements. For
at least seven years in a row, by the way.
And so, I discovered how a love for the
truth should be our motivation allways. The
truth is a fact and the truth we must know.
However, when you speak the truth, you will
find the most bizarre alliances form against
you. This is where our Lord and Saviour
Yesus Kristos, the Truth Incarnate, warned
us for. He said: "When they persecute
you, know that they have persecuted Me
before". So it's not really against
you, it's against the truth.
The Apostle Paulus also warned us.
"Because they love not the truth",
he said, "Jah will give them over to a
strong spirit of delusion that they might
believe the lie and come not to
Some of these delusions seem to be playing
with the minds of certain ones who choose to
attack my person because other people
critisize yet another organization. When
someone's person is attacked because this
person says a thing, then you know that
there is no love for the truth.
Now, why am I writing all of this? Isn't it
all kind of "personal"?
Yes, as a matter of fact it is.
That's why I write this in my personal
journal and not in no article. I know, that
it's being read by those who should read it.
Enough things are said, racism and hatret
and all of that, for no other reason then
that I expose Christafari. Even in a
reasoning about Irascom on the messageboard
of the "Fullfilled Rasta" whereby
the "Chairman" of the Irascom
organization told the story about some
serious threats and violence which he had to
face, accusing others of not hating me
turned out to be more important for the
"Fullfilled Rasta" members. For
the subject turned into exactly that. In
other words: it seemed like they didn't mind
how people were threatened but they did mind
how some people did not hate me.
"Love", sure... But not without
Unity, right? Otherwise it's so...
Being attacked for who you are, because of
what you say (about Christafari).
Attacking others for who I am, because of
what I say (about Christafari).
In the same time, going all over the
Internet telling people to have spiritual
"unity" regardless of their
religion (de facto promoting the one world
religion, obviously) and calling it
"love". In the same time, speaking
about "love and unity" but not
even practicing it. That last thing
shouldn't be too big of a surprise, either.
For it's impossible to have unity with
everyone. But yet it is possible to love
everyone. And for those who think that love
is the same as unity and that it's all to be
recognized when it's "positive"
meaning feel-good, there is no problem with
these double standards. For they have made
their own feelings to the canon or measure
by which they measure. When something
"feels good", then it's considered
"love", and when everyone gives
the other one a good feeling, then you have
Yes, I think I found the answer to that
mystery. The answer is a mystery. But that
mystery is revealed in a revelation. A
mystery whose very nature is to be "all
things to all men". Who knows it, feels
I hope, that the founder of the "House
of the Fullfilled Rasta" will stop to
attack me, to have, her word,
"disdain" for me, for she doesn't
only claim to be a Rasta, she also claims to
be a follower of Yesus Kristos. She claims,
as I claim, to have been born again through
the Holy Spirit by the fullfilled work of
Yesus Kristos on the cross, whereby He gave
His Life for all of us who want to take
freely from the water of life.
I don't know why the founder of the
"House of the Fullfilled Rasta"
has such a strong support for Christafari
and Mark Mohr. Maybe it's based on the
measure of "positive and
negative". And yes, take into
consideration that Mark Mohr of
Christafari's life motto seems to be "I
am all things to all men" in other
words "I will be who you want me to
be". That's what he learned at BIOLA
University where they admittedly
"preach a different christ" and
are strong supporters of George W. Bush, and
that's what he learned at the
"Sanctuary" Organization of one
Bob Beeman, where "Christian Heavy
Metal Worship Leaders" become
self-professed satanists and blasphemers (see
book "Mystery of Christafarianism"
(PDF) for details).
Sure, he can be a very nice and friendly
man. But is that the measure as to how you
judge someone's words? Ever heard of the
word "temptation"? Does it feel
good or bad, to be tempted?
Paulus rebuked Peter. Yesus rebuked Peter.
For what? For being "negative"?
No, not at all. Peter was rebuked for not
living up to the truth. And Peter
listened. Not because "Paul was
right", but because of the truth that
You see, it's about truth. Not about feeling
And when it's about truth, it doesn't really
matter who the persons are. That only
matters for those who judge other based on
some self-defined emotional scale of
"positive versus negative". But
truth can come out of the ass of a donkey.
And calling a donkey's ass for what it is,
doesn't change the truth!
So call me a "donkey's ass" or
"mess-i-am" or whatever
"negative" word you will find to
describe me. Express your personal hatret
towards me, if you must and can not do it
otherwize for it could be all you have.
Blame others for not hating me, if you want
a unity based on "disdain" and
racism. But none of that will change the
truth. And in the end, on that Final Day,
when we are standing before that Throne of
JAH, it's only the truth that remains. It
can not be otherwise, it is not otherwise.
I rather fear the One Who created me, then
fear (wo)man and be scared of being labeled
"negative" by people having a
feel-good law which must be obeyed by all. I
rather speak out against Christafarianism
when I find out it's not the truth then to
hold my mouth shut because Mark Mohr is such
a friendly person.
So I hope, that the "House of
Fullfilled Rasta" will stop
"supporting" Irascom by expressing
personal hatret and racism to me because I
expose Christafari. In the end, for Irascom,
with such "friends" to support
them, who needs enemies? But then, it
would be interesting to see as to just how
much Christafari support these signatures
asked for at the Christafari Message Boards
in order to get acceptance into the Irascom
infrastructure actually symbolize in
reality. Should an organization (cl)aiming
to unify all Rastas be used as a platform to
defend Christafarianism by using racist
remarks? That is something to think about,
especially since it is a factual situation.
I also hope, that he founder of the
"House of Fullfilled Rasta" will
live up to her words about loving Yesus
Kristos and being "Fullfilled
Rasta", for it's rather impossible to
love Yesus Kristos and be a "Fullfilled
Rasta" and not love the truth. And you
do not love the truth when you attack people
for who they are because of what they say.
It only shows you have nothing to answer
about the actual things which matter but
nevertheless still look for a way to shut
But what use is there, in trying to shut me
down? Will it change the truth? No. It might
change the volume of the truth in your ears,
though. For a short while. Because in the
end, Truth is all that matters. Not how you
feel today. For you feel different tommorrow,
just like you felt different yesterday.
What I do want to say, lastly, is that I do
not feel myself called to participate in the
debate and reasoning in Rastafari about the
Irascom Organization. Even on the Dubroom, I
had Irascom asking me for my opinnion. So
here it is. I know, that the Irascom is not
directly responsible for the racism which is
being put on my head, even though it is done
on their messageboard by members who express
total support to Irascom and Irascom
themself seem to hold
moderators responsible for things which
participants say on messageboards. I
know there is a difference between Irascom
and the "House of Fullfilled
Rasta", even though this house has been
founded in order to go into the Irascom
infrastructure and signatures to get there
have been partially collected on the
Christafari Message boards.
But will this difference be clear to all?
"House of Fullfilled Rasta" claims
to be a House for ones who follow Yesus
Kristos. That goes further than Rasta.
It reaches to the realms in which I want to
call myself some thing, namely Messian (that
means: Christian) Dread. So while I have no
reason to say anything about Irascom, I have
a reason to say something about those who
claim to be my brethren and sistren in Yesus
And I do.
Sister Kaya of the House of Fullfilled
Rasta, I know that you profess to be a
Christian, in the sense that you claim to be
born again and saved by the blood of the
Divine Savious Yesus Kristos. This means,
that when you have a genuine critique
towards me, when there is something in which
I do not follow the truth, you can allways
correct me. But allways on the basis of
truth, not on no personal hatret or
"disdain" as you call it. I do not
base my critique on Christafari on the idea
how friendly he is. I judge his teachings
and actions and fruits as the Good Lord
Yesus Kristos instructed us all to do.
Love is happy with the truth, the Bible
says. So anything which is aimed at hiding
the truth, keeping people from speaking out
the truth, can not be an act of love. And it
isn't. Racism, since it is a lie, is also
not a good motivation for a personal hatret,
at least not when you claim to follow Yesus
Kristos. Your many attempts to make me shut
down about Christafari, your subsequent acts
of hatrett and indeed "disdain"
are based on your personal feelings towards
other persons who you might like or not. But
that, my dear sister, is not the measure as
to how we have to judge whether someone
should speak out or not.
I've had other fierce debates about
Christafari. I've had years of fierce
debates with a former moderator of the
Christafari Message board, for example. I
even quoted him in my books, saying things
about him. He had more reason to be angry to
me, then you, Sister Kaya. For I only
respond in public when your insults go too
far and only as a response where I adressed
the other person by name without him
actually mentioning me like you do. He truly
had a reason to hate me, where i never did
anything to do, other then critisizing
Christafari which is not even critisizing
you. Still, we have found a common ground.
That ground is not the smiling face of Mark
Mohr or whoever. That ground is called Yesus
Kristos, the Rock Whom I stand on. He is the
Truth, the Way and the Light. And it is
because of that common ground, that we did
find ourselves in a unity. I guess this is
where you can start to make fuss and fight
between us, as well. And then subsequently
blaming me for being so
"negative". But you can also
choose to be happy with the truth.
And when the truth is that you are truly a
follower of Yesus Kristos, live it up. We
can come together on that basis. Love the
truth and the truth shall set you free. No
membership or no human approval of no kind
wil ever set you free. Only the truth. The
ultimate Truth: Yesus Kristos, Who Else?
One Love (not two),
Messian Dread (Dec 12, 2005)