the months before the major site update and
the release of my essay, there wasn't much
happening in the Dubroom Online and I feel
like I owe all the visitors of the Dubroom
an explanation for that.
Especially the loyal visitors, some of
whom I was even blessed to meet in person
throughout the years.
This is probably the most intimate update
I've ever written, but I owe it to you big
Not all the reasons why there wasn't so
much updates are so intimate though.
Let me start by mentioning some of them.
I literally spend 100's of hours working
on the major site update, the new look. And
it's still not completely over although I
guess 95% or so is finished.
The Dubroom can now easily be expanded
and edited, while it should be possible to
browse from any page to any page in no more
than three or four clicks.
The big part of that work had to be done
off-line, as it would complicate stuff for
the visitors. Consider it like
work-in-progress on a busy road. Everything
done "live" should be as short and
painless as possible for the people who are
driving home or whatever.
Now, since august, September or so I was
working on a
Book about Christafari,
which is now published. I am currently
writing a follow-up too, by the way. I do
not know when that will be published but it
should be released before the end of this
The runnings I write about are either
recent or current and I really don't want to
reveal too much already for obvious reasons.
Some developments are discussed here
on the Dubroom Message Boards,
I also spent a lot of time off-line,
doing performances and some other activities
that had to do with direct help to other
I am also researching out a lot of things
for a book I am writing on Babylon System.
This book is not ready and will not be ready
for quite a while, perhaps years. Some stuff
is online, but behind a password protected
area on the Dubroom Website.
Then I have a lot of correspondence with
people, most of them quite deep and intense.
You know who you are ;)
Fortunately, there are people helping me
on- and offline with getting stuff done. A
big up and the deepest Respect to all of
them, even though most don't ever want to be
mentioned. You know who you are too :)
I hope that the on- and offline
activities are kind of getting synchronized
Now of course, as you can imagine, all
these things are reasons why the website
wasn't updated as frequently as I should.
Now keep in mind it is always my aim to
update the Dubroom main page 4 times a week
minimally. So I am as frustrated as you that
the site wasn't updated as much is it should
be, to use an understatement.
There were too many things that had to be
integrated, and potential new possibilities
would have to be anticipated in setting
everything up as well.
On- and offline had to be synchronized.
This process has almost taken a year and is
still not completely finished.
I have 10's of hours of exclusive shows
by various DJ's for Radio Dubroom. They are
all recorded on location and will be
processed in 2005. You'll love it when it's
As I am currently setting up the studio
again, pretty soon new radio shows will pop
online too. Give me a few weeks. In the
meantime I will I will re-run some of the
best shows starting next week. I got plenty
of them here.
Not only do you have a right to stay
informed on these matters, I feel like I
have an obligation keep you informed.
And I hope the situation is now created
in which this can be done, too.
Now to the more personal aspects. Because
all the things I mentioned above are
well-known aspects of my works and
activities as Messian Dread.
But I am not "just" Messian
Of course, it is my artistic name, and
the name of my identity as dreadlocked
disciple of Yahoshuah ha Mashiach or Yesus
Kristos. So I don't fake one inch. I am
Messian Dread. 100%, in any way you can
think of. If you talk to me, you talk to
But not everyone who knows me calls me by
that name. My father and mother didn't give
me that name either, well actually they did
but in a different way. The name they gave
me wasn't Messian Dread.
Now, for my on- and offline activities as
an artist and so on, in short for my work
it's absolutely unnecessary for me to reveal
everything about my private life. I feel no
obligation to do so, and I'm not some kind
of weird exhibitionist either.
In fact I need my privacy to be able to
do what I am doing.
So I won't go in to questions such as if
I have a partner or not, all these things.
But sometimes stuff that happens to me
privately has an effect on my work. And that
is an equally obvious fact.
There were several instances this year,
in which it was very close to the Dubroom
going off-line completely, or almost
completely. Money, of course, was the
This year I was in the deepest financial
problems I have ever been in my life.
I've spent months without water running
from my tap. I couldn't pay the bill and I
couldn't pay what they said I owed them. And
I still don't know exactly what was the
There were other priorities. Such as
feeding some people and keeping the website
Often I woke up without knowing how to
feed the mouths (including my own) that
night. Not to mention the daytime.
JAH has provided me and others with me
with food and water every day, often
During all of this, in April 2004 I got a
possible explanation for some issues that
were bothering me privately.
Well actually the explanation and the
preceding questions weren't really the
things that bothered me.
What bothered me more was the practical
work out in my life. Not the positive
aspects, such as my work and things. No, the
more negative aspects.
The way certain things developed around
me since I was a child. Things for which I
was never given any explanation and yet had
such an enormous influence on peoples lives,
including my own.
I won't bore you with my life story, but
I can tell you that if I had not my work,
which everyone can see, I wouldn't have no
work at all.
And if people are perhaps sometimes a
little bit happy because I have explained
something to them, I can also say that I had
to learn very hard from a very young age
what it is to be misunderstood.
So explaining has, sort of, been a way of
life for me from ever since I can remember.
Now that I am a bit older then a child, I
know that this explaining is in fact
translating my perception into language
conceivable for another person.
What's the difference, you may ask.
That's what I thought as well, for many
years. Until actually fairly recently.
I learned that I have to
"translate" if it were, my
language of thoughts into the language of
others, and vice versa.
This is not easy, especially when you
keep in mind that this is the situation in
which I find myself in during most
I write far better than I converse. When
I write I can "translate" deeper.
On the other hand, don't ask me to
remember my song lyrics, but when there's
some crucial music running the lyrics come
So when I am able to manage this process,
such as in my work, this has enormous
advances as it enables me to write, make
music, put down a website and much more
And my work is my life.
My work is in the same time about all I
Therefore I put all of my heart and my
soul in it, because it is the only way for
me to be able to pay my contribution
to mankind and with that to my Creator, JAH.
It was not easy for me to put this update
online, but as said, I owe it to everyone
who follow the progression of my work.