do I create and perform musical works with all my
heart and soul, I'm at least as passionate about
writing down my thoughts and feelings. Reasoning,
meditating and analysing is all part of this and
by putting it down in words Jah has enabled me to
share it with others.
WRITINGS OF MESSIAN DREAD
What About Relief?
in the Name of the Most High Yesus Kristos!
Well, after spending the last weeks doing
almost nothing but writing and writing and
writing, it seems like the work is finished.
I'm glad and grateful that it's finished,
unfortunately it was neccesary but when you
love the truth then that is reason enough.
Yesterday, I was reading the manuscript on a
place with lots of water and trees, kind of
a good place to sit down for the final
check. I got into a chat with someone, who
was equally enjoying the site. We briefly
talked about the contents of the manuscript,
As I touched a few subjects, the man asked
me if it was a novelle, a fictional story.
He just couldn't believe it, so to speak.
But after he found out that it was a
documented exposee, he was perfectly able to
summarize the book: "I see, so it's all
about money and power", he said...
Anyway, as I'm preparing the book for
publication, I am physically feeling a
relief which I can hardly describe. It's
like a burden is lifted from my shoulders. I
can't say how intense this burden was, as I
am only noticing this relief just recently.
I just see how I am feeling a relief. I am,
however, not trodding out of a bad
situation. The burden was a good burden. I
have learned so many things in the last
eight months, it's impossible to mention it
all in an update. I'm not even aware of
everything I've learned as knowledge usually
come to the surface only when you need it. I
just notice how I'm learning from the last
eight months and can apply this knowledge in
practice on many occassions.
I don't think that true Christafarians will
notice why I wrote this second book. I don't
think they will see the reason why I had
this burden on my shoulder. I'm not
surprised that someone, who you never met
before and who had never heard of
Christafari, was perfectly able to summarize
their aim where Christafarians will not see
it when it s.p.e.l.l.e.d. o.u.t. for them...
And, personally, I've learned some very
important thing out of this. Maybe that the
man helped me over it, I don't know. It's
not important either.
I learned the importance of the unimportance
of people's perception on this subject. When
you're happy with the truth, then you won't
have to hear why the Truth is neccesary.
Did I have to learn this? Yes, definitely.
The biggest mystery I had to face was the
disability of the Christafarians to see the
abomination of what that casual man was able
to see in one minute...
The mystery is a daughter of a bigger
Even after the mystery was revealed so to
speak, she was still the predominant factor
in my "burden".
For a long time, I thought that it was my
burden to explain the relevance of certain
abominations. The initial shock caused by
the fierce personal attacks on my person was
not as intense the shock caused by the
strong disrespect of the objective truth,
but they both were strongly related.
All these "attacks" were
considered a "defense" by
Christafarians. It was clear how that
defense mechanism worked. It became clear,
that truth was not decisive here. My person
became as important as Mark Mohr's person.
And the contents, the subjects, TRUTH,
became of secondary value.
So I thought it was my duty to explain the
relevance of truth over persons. After all,
these people claimed to follow "Jesus
Christ", and I assumed that this meant
the Christafarians were able to see the
importance of truth over persons.
This only made the Christafarians become
more defensive. But they only opened their
mouth when certain issues were adressed
which they themselves, as a person, had
brought forward into the public domain for
one reason or another.
So while they were able to see the
difference between truth and persons, they
chose to see the importance of persons of
truth. Their religion simply made them see
some relevance in persons over truth. They
call it "love and unity"...
In the meantime, I saw other situations
where the same thing came to the surface. I
saw that people were actually using biblical
sounds to gain control over what they
perceive as "the Christian
Church". False doctrines and teachings,
obviously. I saw people who were actually
using these very same doctrines and teaching
to be under control! I guess that's
what Bob Marley calls: "slavish
Some people actually prefer the prison over
freedom. And they think they are free, they
truly do. They are free from thinking for
themselves. They are free from being just
another human, next to a whole lot of other
humans, as they create their own
enviroinment: a caricature of the truth,
both objective and subjective.
I thought I had to explain the neccesity of
this all, but thank JAH I don't have to!
So the relief I physically sense in this
last stages before the publication of The
Mystery Of Christafarianism, is
my own, personal relief. It's not relevant
for those who need to read the book. It
might be relevant to the Christafarian who
reads this, though.
One last remark: When you want to hear some
good music concerning this: check out a tune
called "warning" by Tony Rebel.
(on the album "If JAH")