do I create and perform musical works with all my
heart and soul, I'm at least as passionate about
writing down my thoughts and feelings. Reasoning,
meditating and analysing is all part of this and
by putting it down in words Jah has enabled me to
share it with others.
ITATIONS OF MESSIAN DREAD
17. MY EXODUS OUT OF
"CHRISTIANITY" INTO JAH FREEDOM
is a report from a personal exodus out of
Babylon into JAH Freedom. It is a report of
an ongoing journey. The journey is long, but
not difficult. And yet it is the most
difficult thing there is.
When I see what I have left behind,
especially in the last half year, I am
motivated to increase my pace. I see people
inside prisons, inside mental slavery,
groaning and howling at me whenever their
imprisonmnet becomes clear.
I see how I have been used, abused, lied
too, manipulated and tricked. I see how my
Identity in Kristos Yesus is imitated,
incorporated in the most idiotic statements
and actions, and even for blasphemy.
I see how I have been hurt by the spirit of
antichrist, the so-called jesus, the
so-called god, the so-called bible, the
so-called church, and yes, the so-called
I learned how all of this was never caused
by the Creator, Who has called me by His
Name JAH RASTAFARI. I learned how the voice
of antichrist was identifying himself as
jesus christ, and how a lot of people are
intimidated in the very same way.
I learned, how babylon is so much more then
"just" the system that politically
and religiously keeps people inside the
I learned, how we all have to step out of
babylon, "the" babylon or
con-fusion that we are in. I learned, that I
had to do it too.
And so I did.
This has everything to do with knowing who
you are. Knowing is even a rather weak word.
Maybe "to grasp" is a better one.
For the last 5 years at least, I have been
patiently and faithfully waiting for
something which I trusted would happen. And
I think that it happenned a few months ago.
My body is 39 years old. I have been born
and raised by my parents who are
Pentecoastal Christians. The first 19 years
of my fleshly body I lived, knowing that I
had to be born again in Yesus Kristos.
Knowing that I could only be who I am (in
other words: do what my Creator has made me
to do) when I would repent.
And so I did this, on august 6, 1985.
That didn't mean that I was now free from
the many hurts that I felt in my soul,
caused by hypocraziness. Although my parents
are true Christians and they have never
shown me anyone else but the True Yesus
Kristos, the Divine Saviour, I have seen
many bad things in the church system.
My idea about Yesus Kristos was
significantly formed by the church and state
system that I grew up in. In general, people
are taught that there is this Geezus in the
Sky, Who is allways on the side of the
Then, when I listened to the voice of the
Good Shepherd, and was given a glance of JAH
freedom many times, i started to realize the
two different Christs in my visions.
There was this Christ, who was exactly the
same as the one who traumatized me, exactly
the same one that I heard describe in some
meditations of Rasta Prophets, the
"Jesus Christ" of the western
And there was this Christ, Who saved me. The
Divine Saviour. I call Him Yesus Kristos. He
cleanses me, makes the fruits of His Spirit
grow inna me, He teaches me and shows me the
About five years ago, I started to realize
the reality behind the false christ in my
vision. I never "preached" that
Christ, but I felt him. I felt him everytime
I talked to a "christian", every
time I read the "bible", everytime
I looked to my sins, everytime I.... Did not
realize who I am In Kristos Yesus.
He intimidated me. When I opened the Bible,
I was condemned in any way that could never
be. I knew that this wasn't the voice of the
Creator, for if it was there were too many
contradictions going on. But still, this
intimidatinmg voice did identify himself as
"jesus christ", or at least tried
to do it.
It was a bit like the temptation of Yesus
Kristos in the desert, when satan came to
Him with all kinds of bible scriptures.
Allways, the devil refered to the Bible. It
was a bit like Paulus who writes about a
different Christ and a different Gospel. It
was like John speaking about that
And in the meantime, I came to the understanding
that I had not done what is described in the
letter of Paulus to the Romans. Repeatly, he
urges his readers to "realize it"
and "count on it". Realize what?
Realizing, knowing, counting on, who you
are in Kristos Yesus!
I understood that I did not overstand. I
knew, but I didn't realize. I hadn't counted
it as my own. I hadn't grasped who I was
fully. and still I don't. But I know now,
that it goes so deep and so high, that I
want to continue on this journey.
You might call it, my personal exodus out of
Babylon. My repatriation to my Iriginal
Identity, Spiritually, in Kristos Yesus my
Lord and Saviour. JAH RASTAFARI in the
Babylon means con-fusion. A fusion that is
not really a fusion. A mix-up. A false
i knew my situation. I was one of JAH's
People in babylon, in con-fusion, and I was
called to leave out of this con-fusion.
I was called to not listen anymore to the
antichrist, to not look to the sins in my
flesh as identification of my spiritual
identity anymore, in other words, I was
called to be who I am. To be who JAH
RASTAFARI made me. To do what JAH RASTAFARI
made me to do.
I asked Yesus Kristos to show me who I am. I
asked Him, to make me realize that I am this
new creation, that I have a new spirit which
is my Identity rather then the sin in my
And I waited.
Until Yesus Kristos took me out of there. He
took me out of this babtylon situation.
But until He did, I trusted Him on His Word.
I trusted Him, because I knew that In
Kristos I am new.
And I think, that this is the biggest lesson
of my life. That I have to keep the faith in
Kristos Yesus. And not worry about anything
else. Because He teaches me along the way,
produces fruits in me without my knowledge